Journal 12/12/08

YES! Today is finally Friday. It has been a long week. It has been a stressful week with finishing up homework and preparing for finals. I am ready for this semester to be done with but I know that I have to put in some last needed effort in order to pass these finals. Last night was our secret Santa Christmas party but I was unable to attend due to having to dog/house sit for my aunt and uncle. Instead of decorating cookies and opening presents with everyone I had to sit alone in a big empty house. This morning I had to get up early after a horrible night of sleep in order to drive back to Madison to make it to classes on time. It wasn't as far as a drive as i thought but still I don't think that I would want to do it every day. I have to stay at my aunt and uncles all weekend so I need to find some things to do. Well I should keep studying for finals but I really don't want to. On Saturday it is my niece's third birthday party. She is a little chatter box and she is so smart. I can't believe that she is three already. It should be a fun time.

Journal 12/10/08

In the last twenty four hours not much has happened. Well besides being completely broke and in debt. My friend and I have run out of meal plan money and am not trying to make it to the end of the semester on a box of rice, a box of cereal, and those cheese cracker things. Every meal we seem to find someone who has some extra money on their meal plan that we can use. Its been going okay so far but it's kind of ridiculous. It is the weirdest feeling to walk by the food servery and know that you can't afford anything in there. Finals are coming up so quick and studying for them is killing me. I find myself wasting time because I don't want to study. I know that I really need to in order to pass these tests though. I can not wait for the next week to go by. Then it is break and I can have time to myself unlike when living in the dorms. During finals week we have a 24 hour quiet hours all week long and it is going to kill me. We like to mess around a lot and so to be quiet all the time is ridiculous I think but I understand that it is a stressful time and people need to study. I just cant believe that this semester is already over. Thank god!

Journal 12/5/08

Today is finally Friday and it has been one of the longest weeks of school so far. It is the week before the last full week of this semester. Therefore homework is piling up like crazy. Yesterday I sat and worked on homework for five hours straight. Today I will also have a late night because of psychology. I had forgotten about the tests that are due today and they need to be done by midnight. I will be staying here tonight instead of going home because my Internet connection at home isn't very good. Also I have had a virus on my computer for about a week now and it is really bothering me. My Internet gets messed up and goes really slow sometimes. It will also just pop up random websites or not let me onto ones that i need. This weekend should be fun and boring though too. I am going home but I don't think that there is anything special going on this weekend. I do need to work on some more homework this weekend also. This next week is going to be very busy because it is the last week of regular classes. I am also excited that it is the last week!

Journal 12/3/08

Today is Wednesday and this week is going so slow. Today is a recovery day. Yesterday there was a lot of drama around me and today I am just trying get back to being good. I feel a little numb to life right now. I'm not really enjoying school or life right now. My friends are feeling distant. Old friends are making waves and I have been rocking those waves harder and I shouldn't be. My relationship with my bf sucks right now. I don't know what I'm going to do or what I even want to do. I can't wait for the semester to be over so that I can have a vacation. I need to get away from this place!!!

Journal 11/26/08

What I am thankful for:
family
friends
opportunities
my education
msn
Internet
food
shelter
steady relationships
my time management skills
sports
entertainment
movies
support from family/Friends
people that make me laugh
most of the time being in a good mood
for my parents
siblings
nieces
where i live
life in general

Journal 11/19/08

Pre-20s: When I'm in my 20s I will...
-No longer be a teenager.
-Be in my second semester of my sophomore year of college.
-Will have had more experience.
-I will be able to legally drink.
-I will be looking towards a future with a guy.
-I want to start a family in my late 20s
-I want to have a successful carer started.
-Graduated college and started a teaching job soon after.
-Have my best friends there for me and I will be there for them.
-Marriage hopefully

Journal 11/17/08

In the last twenty four hours I have been pretty uneventful. Last night I got back to the dorms in the evening and had to clean up my room. It was incredibly messy and had a lot of clothes laying about. I made my bed with clean sheets and put away all of my clean clothes. I then got on the computer to check in with my homework and things like that. I worked on some computer homework but then realized that I had done it the wrong way. I was frustrated so I just quit and started chatting with people online. That was a good way to relax. My roommate and I watched the Jeff Dunham on comedy central and had a good laugh. I went right to sleep and had a good night. My alarm rang and for some reason i jumped right out of bed which is unusual for a Monday morning. I think that today will be an alright day.